Wow ... and life goes on

Its been an amazing journey since my birthday weekend but PTL! this past week has shown great progress. Hopefully I will be able to have energy enough to get caught up on our home and updating the blog.

This journey of illness I was taken on was quite the experience for me. Great opportunity to witness to the ER doctor not once but twice in one weekend! She still is amazed that I'm alive. Now that I'm regaining health, I'm absolutely thankful to God that I am and definitely know that when it comes to health issues for those in our family ... I'm the one that has that knowledge/experience. We've always joked that if anything ever happens to Randy health wise I'll be by his side getting all I can done ... but I'll be (excuse the term) "screwed" if its me that has any health needs. Gotta love him anyway. It's just not Randy's area of expertise and this past two months has definitely confirmed it! Ha! What a walk it was/is. Its quite humbling to know that you might not make it and that if God does take you that your children will be there with you when it happens. Not something I desire for my children to have to go through ... nor do I relish the idea of them growing up without me in their lives. It was a heart wrenching time when I was teetering and had to keep claiming God's promises and reminding myself that He loves my husband and sons far more than I ever could. They have always been God's but I still wholeheartedly love them with all the massive love He created in me. As hard as it was to come to the acceptance that God might take me home and leave my then 7 yo and 11 yo sons to join me later ... it was very reassuring to know that He has their future in His hands and will provide for them far better than I ever can. During this time of illness I spent much time in the Word and even more time in prayer seeking God's will and whether there was something in my life that was preventing me from being healed as I know there were many faithful prayer warriors lifting me up. My human side (w a little help from some friends) kept questioning if I was missing something and why I wasn't receiving healing but God was/is faithful and kept/keeps giving me verses about taking me through things to prepare me for what is to come in the plans/ministry He has for me. During the time that I was bedridden (or I should say coach ridden due to excruciating pain brought on by even air moving little lone children or a husband moving around or trying to touch me.) I spent a few weeks where I couldn't even read due to my being too weak and in pain. It was quite a reassurance and comfort when my beloved sons would read our Project 3:45 chapters and more from the Bible to me. Needless to say I have devoured much scripture and a few books (thanks to my mom for sending me some new ones!) in the last week of feeling better! I don't know what is to come ... I only know that my already tender heart is even more sensitive and open now. I'm seeking to keep my priorities and focus where God directs. Thankfully I have an all loving God who will help me serve according to His will. Thanks for ALL your prayers and petitions on behalf of myself and my family. May God bless you deeply.